18 Months Old Already?!?

18 Months Old Already?!?

It's hard to believe Kayla is 18 months old already!  She is talking up a storm and is practically a parrot repeating everything we say.  We have had a  lot going on.  We recently moved back to downtown Phoenix and K started a new daycare.  She seems to love going because every time I go to pick her up she doesn't want to leave!  She sees me and begins laughing and running around the room!   LOL  That is great news because the first day we dropped her off at the new place I was balling my eyes out.  I felt like I was sending my baby away to college!  Needless to say I will be a total mess when she starts her first day of kindergarten but thankfully we have a while before that happens.

This past weekend we took her and her cousins the McDonald's Pumpkin Patch in Scottsdale.  The kids had a blast at the petting zoo, on the hay ride, and picking out pumpkins.  This weekend?  Boo at the Zoo and the Children's Museum of Phoenix.  Fall is a great time in Phoenix. The weather is beautiful and there are so many outside things to do which is nice since we have been couped up inside all summer trying to escape the heat.

Everyday Kayla is doing something new.  She truly is amazing.  I LOVE being a MOMMA!!!!  It is the best job I have ever had. 

Where does the time go?

It's hard to believe K is 13 months old now! Where does the time go? She is motoring around now that she has the hang of walking and I am diligently chasing after her trying to keep up! It's amazing to think that a year ago I was praying for this little miracle to enter our lives and now I am tripping over toys and doing an extra set of laundry. I LOVE IT! I wouldn't change a thing. This paste weekend we had "Girl's Day Out" at the zoo with my friend Lynn and her daughter Sean. We had a blast. I look forward to many more Mother/Daughter days out to come.

Before I Was A Mom

A friend sent this to me today in an email and it brought me to tears. I am so happy to be a mommy.

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom

-UNKNOWN

Great segment on The Today Show

I'm so glad that the Today Show did a story on coping with infertilty and pregnancy loss. Hopefully this gives some insight to those who aren't familiar with the world of infertility and the impact it has on a couple's life.

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/26184891/vp/36132909#36132909

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The View

I am so glad The View dedicated an entire show to Infertility and Multiple Miscarriages. Too many couples experience this heartbreaking journey. Please take some time to watch this 38 min episode.

If you are going through the struggle to start your family please also consider joining RESOLVE- The National Infertility Association. They were a huge support system for me when I was "unresolved" and I met some amazing women with whom I am very close friends with still today.

To see segment go to the link below:

http://abc.go.com/watch/the-view/167365/252234/the-view-225

RESOLVE Website:
http://www.resolve.org/site/PageServer

Join us for the Walk of Hope March 20th!
http://www.resolve.org/site/Calendar/540182735?view=Detail&id=35161

The Walk of Hope is held to give hope to those facing infertility and to celebrate those families formed through adoption and medical intervention. For 1 in 8 couples in the United States, the dream of creating a family is a long, emotional and expensive journey. Infertility is a devastating disease, touching every aspect of life - physical, emotional, spiritual and financial.

RESOLVE works to increase public awareness of the issues surrounding infertility and the various family-building options available to those facing this disease.

Feeling Kind of Sad Right Now

A week ago today I lost my little puppy Gidget. She was my baby doll, my cuddle bug. We don't know what happened exactly. She was fine Sunday night and then Monday morning everything just went down hill. She wouldn't eat, wouldn't drink, and was moaning. I took her to the vet and they thought she may have pancreatitis. They took an x-ray, gave her some fluids, gave me some meds and sent me home. Just a few hours later she died in my arms. It is kind of a double edged sword. I'm glad she didn't die alone and I was holding and kissing her as she took her last breath but I'm also heart broken I had to witness it.

See, Gidget was more than a puppy. She was with me through each one of my pregnancy losses. Each time I would come home from the doctor's office with the bad news that another baby had passed away she was there to lick away my tears and cuddle with me. When we brought our daughter Kayla home I remember picking her up and telling her, "See Gidg? This is what we have been waiting so long for!" I may be crazy but I totally felt like she "got it" and understood what I was saying. It's hard to believe that she is gone. I will miss her dearly. I love you Gidgi.

Gidget
9/25/05-12/28/09